This song with a heartbeat....

I have appreciation for good music... I'm currently in love with Rilo Kiley, but I'm upset over the fact that they are in hiatus, boo! Oh well, I hope they get back together! Please Please?! Pretty PLEASE?!

Breakin Up

It feels good to be broken up from Facebook. That relationship almost felt toxic and I'm so happy to be done with it. I'm even thinking of keeping it permanent! WHAT?! Hahahaha, i'm just taking it day by day. It's nice to not be so concerned with everyone else's drama, because that's what it's lately all been about in the world of Facebook. Who broke up? Who are not friends anymore? Why is my ex contacting me?! Why is his ex contacting him?! Why do you care who contacts you (I mean you are on a web social NETWORK)?!Why in the world did they just put up all their business on Facebook for the world to see their dirty laundry!? WHY IS THIS PERSON SO UPSET OVER EVERYTHING!

BLAAAAAH! ...............:)

(I must admit, I do miss reading witty statuses from certain people. It would make my day brighter knowing that someone can make a crappy outcome into something funny. )

Don't take anything so seriously guys. If you fall, stay down and LAUGH at yourself. Get up and try again.

CopyCat

So, as you all know, I'm new to this whole blogging scene. :) I gotta tell you, I love it. I love writing things that come from my heart. I love reading inspiring blogs. I never knew there were so many positive people out there and I'm in awe. I came across this one blog called A Beautiful Mess and I'm head over heels for it. The blogger is an amazing and talented person. She is super positive and I love her creativity. She has this little weekly post on Sunday about 10 things that she loves and I think that was so cool that I decided to do it also. So here it goes...

1.I love my family. Together we are stronger than a 20 ton wall of steel. We are a bunch of fruit loops in a bowl of cereal, different color but same shape to let everyone know we are still in the same group.

2. Music. I love how certain songs from different genres can produce so many emotions and feelings out of me. Love, happiness, serenity, strength, sadness, melancholy, optimism. Music is amazing. 

3. Food. Oh my gosh, how I love food. It brings so much joy to me to have the ability to try something so delicious and what I love the most is making dinner with my boyfriend. When you make food with love, everything comes out delish.

4. Not a lot of people understand the power of a picture. Anyone can capture the best moment of their life with a camera, and that is a physical object you can have for the rest of your life to remind you of the good times.

5. My puppy Duchess. She is not a puppy anymore, but I will always remember her as a tiny little thing that fell asleep on my arms as we took her home for the first time. She lights up my day when she puts her head on the bed next to me to wake me up. 

6. Summer. Right now, in the middle of winter, I'm missing summer so much that I'm already window internet shopping for summer dresses. 

7. I love the way babies smell. Hahaha, I know that is weird but they all have this smell that just drives me coo coo bananas, its a mixture of baby powder, baby wipes, milk, and a little bit of vomit. Ha! I love it. 

8. I love lazy Sundays. The feeling of being able to just not do a damn thing, wearing sweats and a t-shirt, watching movie after movie is pure bliss. 

9. Praying. Those few moments of prayer to acknowledge the greater being out there who has given me everything up to this moment and is watching over my loved ones and giving me the chance to be something great. 

10. Saving the best for last like always.... my one and only best friend, lover, and partner in crime, Iovan. Forever grateful for the six years of love and passion we have lived through so far and hopefully another hundred to go.

Sister Sister

So this past week my sister and I had two lunch dates after work. I loved it. I love her. She and I never used to be so close and that bothered me. I mean, I thought everyone got along with siblings. I'm so glad I kept trying though. She's amazing and I hope that she sees that. When we were walking towards the train station, I saw a homeless person and gave him a dollar, we kept walking and she stopped me and said "Wait, I want to give him something too." I felt like my heart lit up. I'm so grateful to have her in my life. 

"When sisters stand shoulder to shoulder, who stands a chance against us?"

Laughter...

You know what I love to do every day? Laugh. It's feels amazing to laugh. I laugh loud and how. It could be giggle or a chuckle, in that instant I feel like my soul is full of happiness and nothing else matters.

Here are some of the things that make me laugh:

1. Tosh.0

2. Daniel Tosh (host of Tosh.0) haha

3. My boyfriend shaking his butt to make me laugh. 

4. My puppy sliding on the wooden floor after I just mopped. 

5. Silly pictures in the internet.....

6. Making weird accents with my sisters and dirty jokes about the most ridiculous things. 

7. A bajillion other things.

I hope this picture at least makes you smile a bit.....:)

Dancing with no pants!

Best way to relieve some stress? Dance like no one is watching. :) Everyone knows how to dance, it's the language of the world. <3

I loved the world today, snow and all. <3

Detoxication is the best medication

So I did it. I broke the chain I had between me and Facebook. I just couldn't take it anymore, I felt like I was on that thing 24/7 just looking at what other people were doing with their lives while I was wasting mine away in front of the computer. I will eventually activate it again, but not until I learn to live without it for at least a while. I mean, don't get me wrong, it's a great way to rekindle old friendships and communicate with family that are living in a different country. Another thing why I wanted to get rid of Facebook was because people were just so negative in that network. I mean, every other status was "FML this....FML that". I know that I used to be one of those, and I was actually very good at complaining. But I'm tired of being a whiner. I want to be a winner. 

I'm not gonna lie, I've been tempted so many times to activate it again but I'm fighting it! 

WAAAAAYAAAAH! 

That is hilarious. I just tried to go and search a picture of someone karate chopping a computer and I type Facebook.com. Oy vey. This is gonna be a challenge. Lol. 

Hahaha!

I think we all need to disconnect from online social networks once in while and maybe going back to actually socializing in person. What ever happened to that? I mean, can you actually remember what your life was before Facebook or Myspace? Now, we have created different personas online and we lose our real selves. Anyone can be anyone online, which is kinda scary. We need to go back to living life without having to write every living moment of it in a box that allows only 420 characters. I checked.

I guess its hard to break the chains from social networking when the temperature is below zero and you don't want to do anything but be inside two blankets with a hot chocolate in your hand and the mouse in the other. 

Summer, I miss you, but I will patiently wait for you and when you come, I will take advantage of you like no other. You will remember my name this Summer, Summer. :)

I promise to sit underneath a tree.

I promise to eat outside as much as possible. 

I promise to visit the water and to swim with the sun.

I promise to take long jogs with nothing but beautiful music in my ears.

I promise to wear skirts and nothing but. I love you jeans, but my legs need to breath.

I promise to kiss my love under a hot humid night and tell him how I love to see his smile next to the sun. 

Till then, I'm gonna activate my old network. Its called Life. You should join it with me. <3

Bloop bloop goes the little fishy in the tank...

So today, the Bears vs. Packers game brought out the worst in me. Ugh! I dislike how angry and over protective I get. Blah! I start writing dumb things on my Facebook wall, and I'm pretty sure I come off as a dumbbutt. <- I'm gonna try not to swear on my blog. Lol. 

Anyways, I've come to realize that I am done trying so hard to be friends with people who are clearly not interested in being mine. I just think that there should be some kind of respect or even consideration that should be given to each other, and I'm obviously not the receiver of that from some. Hmmm. But it is ok. I hope that they do give that to their other friends. 

And another thing, please stop being fake. If it doesn't look good on anyone, then it doesn't look good on you.

On that note, I want to say that I am not a saint. I've also treated some poorly because I didn't think they were worth my time. I've realized now that friends that give nothing but love are worth my time. The only thing that lasts in this world is love. Find it before its too late because without love....there is no happiness. 

Time to reflect...

So it is the weekend! 

::Pressing play for "Good Vibrations- Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch"::

::Doing Happy Dance:: Doing Happy Dance:: Doing Happy Dance:: Doing Happy Dance:: Doing Happy Dance::

Time to recollect myself from a hectic week of school and work. I love waking up on Saturday mornings and knowing that I have time to be with my puppy. The little nugget that never seems to want to ever leave my side. I love that affection that this little creature gives me without being asked. <3

So, you all know how not too long I cleaned my room to get some clean energy in there. Well, I came upon a box my boyfriend and I have of our memories. I love reminiscing about the good stuff, who doesn't? So I was reading the notes that we gave each other in high school. As I was reading all of his, I was surprised that I never...ever....paid attention to how many times he said "you are beautiful" and "I love you so much." What I do remember from those times is that I always accused him of him being unfaithful and how I thought he would cheat on me because I wasn't good enough for him. Every FREAKING note he said that I was BEAUTIFUL! UGH! I can't believe I was so blind! I'm so mad at myself, because I've never believed him and I never appreciated that. I pushed him away so many times, too many times to the point that he almost never says those wonderful words to me again. He probably thinks he is just wasting his breath. Don't get me wrong, he still treats me like a princess but it isn't the same as like it was in the beginning. I'm thinking since we aren't in high school anymore and we are grown ups, he can't act all mushy anymore?....hehehe.

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Now every time he says that I'm beautiful or "I love you", I'm going to press the record button in my brain and save it so that I never forget.

Like my amazing friend said "Don't pull the plant's(love) leaves, and don't ignore it! Water the plant! Water the plant!" Love her and her metaphors.

Hope you all have a WONDERFUL day!

Animals...

Sometimes, animals show us a better example of what love and unity should be like....

I love my Iovan. He is my one and only penguin. We will get through the hard times together...and we will live for the good times together.

Decisions decisions

So as I was waiting at the expo line waiting to pick up a food for one of my customers. The sous chef looked like he was stressed out. I asked him what was wrong and he said he couldn't decide what to eat and that he was just so sick of eating the same things over and over again............

How he doesn't realize how lucky he is to have the ABILITY to fret about what he should have to eat for dinner tonight is mind boggling. A million of homeless people DON'T have the right to choose what they can or cannot eat. Thousands of homeless people DON'T have any dinners that come close to what they take out of garbage dumpsters. Hundreds of homeless people DON'T have ANY decisions of what to eat.

Never make anything so insignificant like deciding what to eat significant. Next time when you are frustrated about not being able to decide between the juicy hamburger or the never ending pasta, just pick one WITHOUT even thinking. Be happy you can pick. Don't make your life hard with easy decisions. Be appreciative for what you can have. And if you really want to make something you may think insignificant into significant, pick both the burger and the pasta, have one to go and give it to the first person that REALLY needs it. 

Give and don't expect to get something back except the satisfication you feel in that beautiful heart of yours. 

Love and Be Loved <3

Good morning

I was so insecure yesterday, sigh. I guess not everyday can be a GREAT day. Actually, it can be, but I let it get to me today so I failed. I have flaws but I guess that's what makes me perfect. Because, I'm real and not a robot. 

If you cut me, I bleed. But I never said I couldn't heal.......<3

TODAY!

I love waking up every morning. I take it as a sign that God gave me the OK to love someone or something today....or EVERYONE. <3

If you don't believe in love, love will always be around the corner, just in case you change your mind. If you don't believe in happiness, happiness will always be behind that door, waiting you for to open it up. If you don't believe in peace, peace will always be in the box tucked in the corner of your closet, hoping to be opened up. Love, happiness, and peace is always near you, you don't have to look for them too hard.

Good Deed Day 5: Gave my baby sister money because I heard she was going downtown with barely any money. She doesn't have a job yet, but I know she will soon. I hope she has fun with her friends today. :)

Smile

When all else fails, music never will.

Good Deed Day 4: My aunt wanted me to wait for her so that we could take the train together. I got out of work an hour early, could have been home earlier....but I waited. She gave me a kiss on the cheek. She was really happy I waited for her so that she wouldn't take the train by herself.. :)

La la la love!

I've decided to start saving up money for Rosetta Stone. It is a DVD, CD-ROM, and book program that teaches you different languages. I want to learn French. I think France breathes and births romance and beauty. Besides, I need to learn French for when I go there on one of my many adventures in life. :) The thing about this program is that, it's EXPEN$IVE. But it is OK, bc I have all the time in the world to save $600. I will be saving, five dollars every week, and any extra change that I have lying around I will add to my "Rosetta Stone" secret piggy bank. I can't wait!

A friend shared with us a touching story on Facebook and I'm so glad she did, so that she can remind us that all hope for humanity is not lost. Here's a bit of what she said:

"I had just gotten off of my bus when I went to go stand  and wait for the other one. I saw an older man waiting to cross the busy street and he had a red and white cane so I figured that he was blind.(that sounds kind of wrong. I don't mean to label him as that just because of the cane, there could have been many other reasons why he had one but I kind of knew he was. I don't know...but I'm sorry if that sounds like labeling. That wasn't my intention.)  I was looking his way because I was looking to see if the bus was coming and I noticed that he started crossing the street and he bumped into the side of a car (because the idiot driver was past the white line for pedestrians to cross!) so that kind of worried me. So I kept watching him while he made his way around the car and kept walking but then an ambulance siren sounded pretty close so he stopped midway to the other side of the street and waited for it to pass. The ambulance took a while to finally pass and by the time it did the red hand signal was already up but the man was still in the middle of the street. I figured "Oh he'll be fine. Common sense that the people coming towards him won't go because they'll see the cane,and see that you know he's blind and elderly." Tell me why traffic started moving?

The cars were going and the man was panicking because he couldn't get passed. I couldn't believe it. Who in their fucking right mind would go when they see ANYONE crossing the street?!?!? I was in shock for a second but then I realized I needed to go help him or else someone was going to hit him. I had literally taken ONE step when I saw a man jump out of his car, wave his arms in the air, scream at the top of his lungs for the cars to stop while he reached the old man. The cars stopped, the man who got out of his car grabbed a hold of the old man and helped him safely cross the street and got him where he needed to go to. At this point I just started crying. I didn't realize I had been holding back my panic and I took a deep breath of relief. "

Love it. Love the stranger that helped the elderly man. Love my friend for noticing that amazing act of kindness and being able to share it with us. <3 <3 <3

Good Deed Day 3: Bought one of my favorite chocolate chip cookies on my way out from work and went looking for the first homeless person out in the street. I came across one in less than a minute. She looked like she was in her early 20's. The look in her face she had when I have her a cookie was so rewarding. I mean, it was a cookie! Maybe she was also glad that someone acknowledge her and gave her some type of connection. Everyone needs contact, it was what we yearn since birth. We as babies cry so that our mothers can pick us up and hold us in her arms. I walked away with a smile in face, it was so contagious that I felt like my heart was smiling too. :) Next time, someone is getting a turkey sandwich. <3

I love....life and its wonders.

 

"May the sun always shine on your windowpane; May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain; May the hand of a friend always be near you; May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you." -Irish blessing <3

Flowers

Today, my kindness was tested. Like I've said before, I'm trying to live with a whole new vibe. I want to be positive, I want to bring positive, I want to live in the positive. I know that its not gonna be easy though. You are always gonna be tested. Even if its a small thing, it's still a test. But today, my kindness was definitely tested. Some people just bring in a bad mood to a place and maybe they don't realize it, but they should, and if you are so down, then maybe you should talk to someone about it. Venting is good. They also don't realize that that bad mood is contagious. AND I tried really hard to send out good vibes by smiling and being super duper polite! But I felt the more I did that....the more it was being rejected. Well, anyways, I, immediately felt sad and down too. I was confused and began to over think. Why is this person so mad? Is this person upset with me? And if that person is, what in the world did I do? AND HOW CAN I MAKE IT BETTER?! 

My mind goes 100 miles per hour as you can see. I over think everything, I make it my job to bring a solution to EVERY problem, and that needs to stop. So I stopped for a good two minutes and let out this big sigh. 

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Whatever is this person's problem is their own and not mine. Sometimes, it's not your place to fix someone's problem if they don't ask for help.  (I truly hope that you have resolved whatever has you down).So, I was keeping myself busy, but it was still gnawing in the back of my head. That is until I saw some roses. Lol. That was it. Roses. They put me in such a happy mood to be able to see pink and yellow roses. I was staring at them for a good few minutes. Flowers are so beautiful, the color, the texture, the life that they bring out into a room. It's amazing the power flowers hold over me and this world. I mean, think about it, flowers are used EVERY day to celebrate something incredible. Flowers for a new mother and her newborn baby, a graduate, a lover whom loved spending time with their special someone, newlyweds, and just for a regular day to cheer up a loved on who is having a bad day. 

Thank you roses for saving me from a grumpy mood.

Long live flower power

"We are only given today, and never promised tomorrow. So be sure to tell someone you love them"

Good Deed Day 2: I found an iPhone 4 and returned it back to its rightful owner.

Nice deed? Indeed.

So my friend and I decided to start doing something nice once a day. Sort of to put out good energy out there. Everyone deserves to be done something nice to. Even something, like our planet. I've decided to do something nice for someone and this lovely blue planet once a day. 

Today, I cleaned a million and one bird cages. Hehehe, OK, not really, but I cleaned five bird cages for my bf's mother, who is currently out of the country. I didn't have to do it, but I did it. Its not an easy task. Have you ever cleaned a bird cage for a couple of old birds? It smells worse than my dog's poop or even...

Sorry, I gagged for a second there. 

Anyways, I decided to do it without a grumpy face and without being told to do so. I love my bf's mother, and she, like any other mother, needs to be done something nice to....every day. Bc without them, we would not be here. Without their womb to shelter us and feed us for nine months, we would not be in this beautiful green Earth. Love you mothers. Especially mine. 

I didn't really get to do anything for the planet today. :( Well, I mean, I marveled at the beautiful snow that was falling so dainty on the ground. I took some appreciation for the incredible scenery that nature has provided us so many times without charge. <3 Snow, you are so beautiful. 

I haven't finished cleaning my room today. I only got to clean the exterior, because once I got to the cabinets and dressers I was more organizing then throwing away and that wasn't the point. The point was to get rid of unnecessary objects. Its so hard to part with memories. I guess it's easier said then done.

People, keep EVERYONE that was injured during that tragic shooting in Arizona in your thoughts and prayers. It makes me sad that only the Rep. Gifford is only being mentioned in the news. I am also sad for her and her family, but there were others that were also affected and are fighting for their life. Lets keep our heads up in this heinous act of violence. Anyone that is out there of thinking of hurting themselves or other people, think twice of the sadness you cause. Death is not the answer, and neither is hate. Love is the solution and hugs are the icing on the cake. 

You are all amazing and together we can all create a light brighter than the sun. <3

Spring Cleaning?

I've decided to start early on my "spring cleaning". I believe that if you want to make your world a better place, you need to start with yourself. If you want to clean this world of negativity and the darkness, you can always start with the simplest of things. AND you must start with yourself. So today, I've decided that I'm going to clean my room. It's silly I know, but my room is my little piece of my world. It's going to be hectic because I am living in a mountain of past memories in that room. I want to start living in the now, I want to start living without complications. Yeah, without complications. So I will be gone with anything that reminds me of bad memories. Memories that I know have knocked me down before. When I clean my room, I want to be able to breathe in a "clean" energy. I'm starting over, I said that in the beginning. 

Love you all. I will be a love machine for the rest of my life.  

"I'm just a love machine, and I won't work for nobody but you. I'm just a love machine, a hugging, kissing fiend, I think its high time you knew." -WHAM!

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Hello world

This is weird. I feel like I'm just wearing underwear and standing in the middle of downtown during rush hour. I want to begin by saying "sorry." Sorry for having such horrible grammar. That is the only thing I will apologize for, because what I want to say, what I am going to write, might offend other people. It is not my intention, but if that is how I feel, then that is what I feel. I am not sorry for that.

Today, I had sort of an epiphany.

Epiphany-(from the ancient Greek ἐπιφάνεια, epiphaneia, "manifestation, striking appearance") is the sudden realization or comprehension of the (larger) essence or meaning of something.

I do not believe in church. I do not believe the people that are behind the scenes of the Roman Catholic Church. It is all politics, lies, deceits. BUT I believe in God. I believe in a higher being, the one that gives me the opportunity to see my family everyday and lets me open up my eyes to live another day. I believe in the power of praying. I believe in the power of love. I believe in the power of unity. I will be forever thankful to God for letting me be born, for breathing life into me every day and every night.

See, my mother took a million pills, x-rays, and other drugs that were given to her by doctors to cure her "stomach pain". But in reality, she was pregnant with me. My mom prayed, my mom begged, and she prayed some more so that I could be born into a healthy child once she found out about me. Here I am, 23, 10 fingers and 10 toes, writing a blog about being thankful everyday for being alive and I give thanks to God. I know God is there, I know God is with me. But I will not stand behind a religion that has been proven over and over again to be a shadow of lies. Fakers.

I am moving on to a brighter future. One without negative people that I am constantly surrounded with. Specifically that one person that irks me at work, home, circle of friends? I have no time for you. I have no time for your darkness that is trying to block my sunshine. I am a diamond in the rough. Ready to get messy but hopefully make it alive through my journey of love, freedom, peace. From now on, I am going to better myself for me. For you, for this world.....for me.