How often...

...do you find yourself asking what you want out of this life?

Do you want more skills, talents...even love?

I do. It might be human nature to want more and more and yes, MORE. It's like you are so hungry and you see this five pound burrito and you finish it, then you are thinking what you might have in the next hour and then the hour after that one and then the next meal....and so forth.

It's an everlasting hunger and sometimes it makes me mad because I wish I could be satisfied already. Then, sometimes I think that if I didn't have this everlasting yearning...life would simply just be too simple. I'm so happy that I make goals and have dreams pretty much daily but then it all becomes too overwhelming.

one day at a time right?

right. :)

CNN, ABC, CBS, SHO?

Yesterday, I probably had the best laugh on a Saturday morning.

So mother had left for the doctor yesterday and when she came back, I asked her why she needed to go. She replied by telling me that she need to get her yearly blood test and I asked for what. She said just to sees if she had any blood diseases or HBO.

She meant HIV.

I, by no means, mean to make fun of my mother, but this was hilarious and one of the biggest fails in the world. Aside from what happened this morning but that's another story. P.S. Don't ever talk bad about anyone, bc when you least expect it, they could be hearing your whole conversation during a webcam conversation....



Laugh. At least once a day.

I pity this kid...

Sometimes, people do forget that.

January 24, 2011

A beautiful little angel was born on January 24, 2011.

I met her today and as I held her, I thought to myself "Look at this little creature, with no worries in the world, she has no thoughts about anything. I wonder if she dreams of colors? Does she dream? She hasn't really used her eyes so how can she possibly dream about a thing?"

Isn't it amazing how a little human being that has taken shelter in a woman's womb for nine months all of a sudden starts living a whole different life once out of that little warm home.

A year from now, she'll be able to see her momma and poppa.

Two years from now, she'll be walking and asking for things and maybe saying more than just ma, da, or wua wua.

Three years from now, she'll be running with the rest of the kids and making friends.

Four years from now, she'll be ready for another chapter. Kindergarten.

Then.......endless possibilities.

But for now, she laid all snuggly between my two arms, making little baby noises and smelling like the most delicious of deliciousness. For now her life was simple, quietly simple and making people love her with her coo's.

Oh and her name is Luz, which means light. How fitting is that? Beautiful little Luz...

Little angel, sweet little angel...I hope you are blessed with a beautiful life.

I think...

I think you should write love letters more often.

What? You don't have someone to write them too?

Write them to yourself.

I think you should say thank you every morning that you wake up. 

Why?

Because you were able to wake up in this life and not in the next one.

I think you should say thank you every night when you go to bed. 

Why?

Because you are safe and all snuggled up in your bed, and who doesn't love that?

I think that when you say hi to someone, you should look them in the eyes.

What? You are in a hurry and can't stop to make conversation?

One good look takes 2 seconds and smile takes half of one. Besides, everyone wants to see that face of yours.

I think that you should say I love you at least once a day to everyone that is close to you. 

Why?

Because what if you don't ever see them again?

I think that if you crave something to eat really really REALLY bad, you should go and eat it. 

Why?

Why not.

I think you should paint more often, sing more often, dance more often. 

Why? You're too busy?

Make time. Sometimes with the extensive vocabulary that there is....words cannot always describe how you feel.

I think that when you get upset, you should let it go as soon as possible.

Why? You are super upset?

Stress takes years off your precious life, stress that will probably only last one day but will take days that you will never have. 

I think you should listen to me.

Sister Sister

I often think how horrible it must be to be an only child because you don't get to talk to anyone when you don't agree with your parents or you are having problems with something random or want to borrow clothes. But then I look at myself and how I have sisters and how probably it's not that horrible to be an only child.

Example A:

Mom is picking me up from work and my sister is in the car with her.

Me: Hi mom. Hi Belen.

Mom: Hi my love.

Belen: Hey.

One second of silence:

Belen: Hey Marce, so we were watching home videos today.

Me: Uh huh.

Belen: and seriously, I think there should have been a law against those things you called "eyebrows".


Ouch.


Example B:

Me changing in my room and Diana and Belen are on my bed talking about their lives...

Me: Turn around I need to change.

Them: Yuck.

Me finishing putting on my underwear and they open their eyes. I turn around and Diana practically screams out the following.

Diana: Eww, you have cellulite.




Double Ouch.


Example....ah, you get the point.

Nevertheless, If I didn't have them, they would not have provided these chuckle moments.


Lessons to be learned from these examples:

1. Burn all videos of your childhood.
2. Lock the door to your room and bathroom.

What you doing to me...

January. Your cold weather has its fingers trying so desperately to touch my heart. It's getting cold and I want the sun to come in and breathe some life in to me.

Sun, wake up. Wake up, Sun. Wake up. Wake up, Jack...err Sun.

I've been feeling a little down, and I think it's because this weather does not make up its mind. Just like that Katy Perry song. You're hot then you're cold and then you snow, which it blows...kinda. Blah.

Got my first quiz tomorrow and have I read the first two chapters? Merp. That means no in Marcela's language but it's community college so I'm sure I can get an A with my eyes closed and my hands taped behind my back.

I'm dead serious. -_-

Besides, I'm awesome. I can get an A anytime I want. <-Narcissist Marcela.

Eww.

Ok, today I've been doing a lot of cons and pros about everything (in my head, in a Helen Mirren's voice). It's pretty hilarious and today was Sunday so I had all the time in the world.

Pros aboot having long hair:

You get to whip it back and forth.
You get to hide your face and act all mysterioso with a boy.
You make fake mustaches and fake unibrow.
You get to braid your hair like how R.Kelly says.
You get to cover your boobies a la Brooke Shields in Blue Lagoon when you are missing your bra.
You get to chop it and then feel like a whole new person. Boom.

Cons aboot having long hair:

It takes ten minutes to brush your hair after taking a shower. I've counted.
It gets damaged easily.
When you whip it back and forth, your neck curses you the next day.
It creates a nest in the back of your head for no apparent reason.
You have to buy really expensive shampoo that says foo foo la foo to keep it nice and "commercially looking"

Meh that's it. Pros win.

Pros about having two pets: 

They get to play with each other when you have no time to play with them.
There are two furry animals that greet you when you come in the door. (Something that family needs to learn from)
Seeing them both sleep so peacefully reminds me that they are never gonna have to appear in an ASPCA commercial. (Damn you Sarah Mclachlan)
When they wake up next to you, it's possibly one of the best ways to greet the day.
They constantly ask for your attention (CAN ALSO BE A BIG CON)
They keep you fit.
Scientists say that they add five extra years to your life because they make you happy.

Cons about having two pets:

When they both start staring up at the ceilings and following something that is not visible to you. YOU KNOW YOU HAVE A GHOST IN YOUR HOUSE. Scary. Fuck.
You need to buy two different types of food if it's two different species.
Sometimes them playing together turns into fighting like cats and dogs...literally.
Double the poop.
Double the damage to your personal property.
Did I say double the poop?

Pros still win. Boom. 

Pros about having a loved one: 

They blow off the things stuck in your eye.


I learned that the other day when I had no one around me. Fucking sucks.

Pros win. Boom. 

I need to go to sleep or at least start reading those damn chapters. I guess that means I'm gonna go to sleep.

SLEEP BEATS HOMEWORK EVERY TIME!

Love, love love wins every time though. :) ♥

save some snow before it all gets melted by the storm!

January.

2012, why you no want to open up your arms to me? That's how I felt about the new year but now I don't care. The beginning of this year has been not so easy to tell you the truth but it's all about trying to find the silver lining.

It began with a close friend's family emergency.

Then it was starting on the wrong foot this school semester. (I read the schedule wrong.)

Then it was my boyfriend's car accident. Yes, car accident. Car = totaled. Him = totally fine.

To tell you the truth, that day is a blur to me. I hated so much that he had to go through that but I'm so grateful to have him get out of that without one scratch. Thank you God. Thank you seat belts. Thank you air bags. AND thank you car insurance for giving him a nice check on that car. Ca-ching. Phew!

Yes, it was a minor setback for him but I am sure that everything happens for the best and today, he is a proud owner of 2012 Camry. His dream car.

But me and my silliness with the school schedule.....Ay yai yai yai yai...

You know when you see something and your mind switches letters and numbers, that's me. Is that dyslexia? Yea, I think I have that.

Then there are these houses catching fire. I'm just happy that none of the families were hurt.

Lessons to be learned:

1. Materials, Ex: Car, House, etc.... do not matter as long as the people that make you smile are perfectly fine. 
2. Have good car insurance. 
3. Double check  Triple check EVERYTHING. 
4. Reassure everyone who is a having a hard time that everything is OK and is going to be OK.
5. Be thankful every day. Every day.

 ♥

 

Quote of the day....

"Music does not judge your emotions, it evokes them to be released....."

3 years ago yesterday....

I met a little angel that I hold so dear to my heart. She is hairy, has four paws, and she greets me with a lick.

Duchess.

Oh how I adore her, I can't get enough of her and I love how she loves me too. I know it.

Three years of

Knocked over things.
Puppy eyes.
Whimpers when she has nightmares.
Deadly farts.
Unrealistic tug-of-war games.
Potbelly.
Mornings with her butt on my face.
Mornings with her farting on my face.
Worried eyes when I start coughing uncontrollably.
Patient days of her waiting for me to walk her.
Happy barks.
Chewed up 90 dollars strappy shoes. Once. But once is enough.
100 bones.
1,000 treats.
10,000 pictures.
Nights of unexpected diarrhea.
Nights of heating me up during cold winter nights.
Summer days where all you hear is her pants.
Greetings at 3 a.m. at night.
 ............


Dear God, give me more of those. I'd like to keep her forever and three more years. ♥♥♥

2012

Another year, another day, and patiently awaiting the memories that I will cherish.

Iovan and I took Duchess back to his house. She's adorable and I love her. She met Xavier, Iovan's nephew, for the first time, and I'm impressed at how well she reacted to a little 1 year old.

She's a good puppy.

Today, kitty dug her nail deep in my finger and it hurt like hell. I want to hurt kitty so bad but I love that damn fur ball too much to actually do any harm to him. He's gonna pay for it some way. DECLAWED!

So new year resolutions is to make a resolution every day and have accomplished it. Nothing like starting fresh every day and remembering that nothing is impossible but possibly hard and positively attainable.


Goodnight, tomorrow I must start work after a four day vacation. Ouch. Must remember not to vacation for too long. Must do it often but not for too long.