Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Puppy love

Project M:
 
Day 4,

  I can't believe that it's been 6 years since my puppy has been born. Late last night while laying on our bed, I was craving to see some pictures of my Duch and I stalked my husbands facebook albums. He has so many pictures of her and I immediately regretted searching them up.

   She looked so young, of course, but as I looked back, I couldn't exactly remember what we were doing in that specific moment when I took that picture. Where had time gone? My baby girl so adventurous and a ball full of mischief. She has given me so many years already and I wish I could relieve them again and again and again. 

   Looking at her now, as she is laying on her bed and snoring like a sailor, her features have roughned up. Her muzzle full of grays and lips hanging more than usual. I can't bear the thought when that's all she will want to do. Just lay in bed and sleep and not be bothered bc her joints hurt and she doesn't want/can't move. Right now, she still has that puppy energy. She wags her tail as soon as she hears me shuffling around the bed in the morning. She waits impatiently by the door for her morning walk. I never want that to go. I never for one second want to see her shrug off the notion of an afternoon walk. I love her so. I will miss her so. 

Today, I loved her little bark at me as I was shredding cooked chicken. She wanted that chicken so badly.


Monday, October 20, 2014

Lovely Mondays

Love dinners with my husband. 

Love cooking in my kitchen. 

Love the white clouds on a crisp blue sky afternoon. 

Love good talks about random things.

Love Tina Fey's "Bossypants" (read it twice) 

Love Duchess' head nudges. 

Love The Cure on a good fall day. 

Love the shadows from an afternoon sunset.


Moving Mondays

Project M:

Day 3,

After a weekend of a sister sleepover which included pigging out, walking dead marathon, and more pigging out, I feel ready for this Monday. I shall take this Monday by it's balls and throw them to the fire! I still can't believe I don't drink coffee. Sometimes I don't know how I do it. It must be the spirit inside of me. It must be the promise of a beautiful blessed day. Or the fact that I get to just be a part of this world.

Saturday night I watched Hocus Pocus with my sister and husband. My sister and I were grinning like idiots whenever our favorite scenes came on (mine would have to be when Winnie sings and casts that spell on the horny adults). I'd turn my head once in a while to see my husband just watch the movie in total boredom but he was nice. Usually when a movie rubs him the wrong way, he'll Roger Ebert the shit out of it. Don't get me wrong, this movie has all kinds of dumb scenarios but it's got all the right feels. I don't know. Ok, I'm just not explaining it right.

Today, I loved how easy work was.

Saturday, October 18, 2014

I've got a CRUSH on you

Project M:

Day 2,

On this sweetest day, I thought about the first sweetest day Prince Charming and celebrated together. In high school, they had this candy gram and he sent me a can of "crush" during second period. Attached to it was a sweet note and all the girls around me "ooooooed". Yeah, I was one lucky girl.

Last week, I stumbled upon our high school love letters and I can honestly say with much happiness that P.C. has kept his word so far.

I was thinking that every person deserves a sweet soul like my husband. Everyone deserves a person who will protect and love and respect through and through. There is no need to be in a relationship that is one sided. No one should be with a fixer upper person. You should come in a relationship with much love and adoration for a person that you don't feel the need to change them so you'd like them better. You should be with a person that makes you feel better.

I'm surrounded by two amazing men that have so much love to give to their women. My dad and my husband. They both have shown me what it is to love a women and see to it that they have the sun, the moon, stars and the beauty of the flowers.

Today, while my dad was talking to my husband, my mom asked my dad a question and without missing a beat in his conversation with my husband, he answered my mom. Because, no one puts mom in a corner.

Friday, October 17, 2014

Thursday night rambling

Project M:

Day 1,

Today, I lost it. In the most childish way, I lost it. For about four months or so, maybe more, there has been this dislike for somebody that has just been snowballing inside me and it's become intolerable. Just the sight of this person makes me want to punch a wall until my knuckles bleed dry, and don't get me started on their voice. Their voice means a death of a thousand puppies. It's that unbearable.

The fact is, this feeling of "hatred" (and I put it in quotation marks bc I don't like using that word or even feeling it) that has harbored inside of me is really starting to take a toll on me. I can't concentrate and just like Cady heron, word vomit just spills out incessantly.

It also doesn't help that I've been surrounded by this negativity fog lately and it's not this Mercury Retrograde thing. I've been feeling like that for a while now. It's not depression. I think it's less serious. I guess I can blame laziness that's come over me. I don't want to see the positive in anything because sometimes being positive just drains so much energy. You know that phrase "fake it till you make it". There was so much falseness and not enough of a genuine feeling. So I stopped trying and I freaked out more often. Looking for the bad in everything so I had something to blame why things didn't work out the way i wanted them to. Ugh, this paragraph is making me upset. Of course, I love positivity. It's the ONLY way to be. But like I've said, I'm caught in this negative tornado and I can't see land yet.

Moving on-  to cut this short there's been a voice inside of me that has been telling me to quit it. Also, Dr. Alchemist has been given me some positive thoughts. I very much appreciate Doc.

Uuuugh, someone just farted and it stinks. And I'm surrounded by three women so I know one of them is not very classy.

Anywho, I've started a project. I hope to see it through.

One last word vomit of this ass that makes me cringe. This person calls me "happy pants" and that fact that this person DOES NOT make me happy just makes my blood boil. I shall call this person Sad Pants.

Today I loved my hot chocolate in the morning.  

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Sundae (I'm not hungry)

So let's see what has happened since the last post. 

ISIS is the newest terrorist threat to 'murica. 

Ebola is here. (Dust off your zombie killing skills) 

Fall/winter is here/coming.

Apple unveiled their newest phone iTaco 6.

Oh and my husband bought me a car. 

HE BOUGHT ME A FUCKING CAR! 

On our anniversary, he went all Oprah on me "and YOU get a car! (But you have to pay for insurance, gas, city stickers, floor mats, oil change...etc)"

I'm so grateful. Oh my lord, am I ever. He's the most wonderful person I've ever met. So I only have one more wish. 

Dear Chicago weather, I know we are technically in Fall, but can you hold off the rainy, windy cold days. I just found out how amazingly good it feels to have the windows and sun roof open while blasting my favorite songs. Oh my goodness, dare I say it's better than eating? Yes. Yes it is. 

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

El Gran CaƱon

Part 2- Grand Canyon, I miss you.

Let's start where I left off with my boots. So to skip the suspense, my boots dried. Thank you dry heat, thank you newspaper, and thank you hotel AC.

We wake up early in the morning to a nice morning chill. Our one hour drive from Flagstaff was so peaceful and easy that it made the morning that much beautiful. We passed more crazy signs, such as, "managed fire" "watch out for bulls"? Lol, yeah, that one happened. As we got closer to the canyon, the roads and forest were consumed with a thin veil of smoke from the managed fire, it was a pretty cool sight to see.

Well, we get to the Grand Canyon, we stretch, we apply sunscreen and double check we have everything, and of course we don't. Marce forgot  the camera's battery we had charged the previous night. Oy vey. Thankfully the one we had was used very little the day before.

After a few "I'm sorries", we finally managed to get to the entrance of the trail. I can't explain what I felt when I saw it. It was big, definitely big. Haha. But the thing I loved so much about It was the fact that it was so quiet, even with all the people arriving and "ooooing" and "aaaahing". It was something out of this world. You get there and the pictures you see from your 6th grade geography book can't even compare to the vast beauty and intimidating presence. The Grand Canyon was alive. It was a breathing living place.

We start walking down and the first thing we see is poop. Mule poop everywhere. Apparently, you can ride a mule up and down the Grand Canyon. So we carefully gave each other heads up when there was poop. We even got a chance to see a mule train. Poor things, I hope they are not being over worked.

Anywho, before I continue, I want to make note that we started at 8 in the morning. The recommended time to hike the Grand Canyon is before 10 am and 4 pm. The mister thought that it wouldn't be so bad and later on I almost killed him bc of this genius idea.

Ok, so we are barely down the one mile marker and I'm kinda freaking out bc I was feeling a little sweaty and a little tired bc gravity was being a little bitch as we were walking down the somewhat steep trail. We get to the rest house and refill our water bottles and these cute squirrels come out of nowhere and started begging for food. They literally would  put both of their front paws to beg. One of them even took a peek inside our backpacks. So cute. So we continue our hike and passed by this volunteer ranger. He stopped and asked us how we were doing and how far we are thinking of going. The mister tells him that our plan was originally to go down 6 miles. Yeah, you read that right. The volunteer says that it's not a good idea and hubby decides that we at least have to go down 4.5 miles to the Japanese garden. The volunteer also tells us that we might be pushing it. He let us proceed but told us to keep hiking with caution.

We continue down, and as we are walking down, I couldn't help but notice half a dozen people just drenched in sweat, their cheeks flushed red, chugging water like it was a matter of life or death. The people walking up were total zombies, you could see it in their eyes that the only that mattered to them was seeing that exit. Some people still had some energy left to smile at us and say hi. That gave me a bit of relief but I was still shaking in my boots. I followed my mister and I just watched him with so much happiness bc he was happy. He was pumped up with life. He'd stop and take pictures, remind me to drink water and just go "wow, look at this." every minute he could. He was my water. As we got closer to the Japanese garden, we were pretty much on our own. Every five minutes we'd probably see someone hiking up. On one occasion we heard a clink and clank and clink and clank. We looked back and we see this older man, probably closer to 55-60 just strolling down with a backpack. It almost seemed like he was in a hurry. I asked him where he was headed and the next response pretty much knocked the wind out of me. He said, "On my way down to my kayak. Just went up to get some more beer." As he patted his backpack like he had precious treasure inside and smiled like a five year old.

The man hiked up just to go get some more beer to bring down to his kayak...by the river...like ten more miles down. Jesus H. Christ.

Mister and I just looked at each other in awe and almost ashamed bc here we are, a couple of twenty year olds, and a little scared of the hike coming back up. So we finally arrive to our destination and are welcomed with shade and restrooms. Although at this point, we are sweating so much that we really don't need to use the restroom. We are cliff bars, elevated our legs, and filled up our camelbacks. More of the furry critters come to beg for food and they provided some amusement. Thirty minutes passed and as soon as I felt relaxed the husband says "ok, let's go back up."

 It wasn't even thirty minutes from our rest that I told him that we needed to stop. I felt fatigued. The sun was beaming down so hard that I felt like skin might just slide off my bones. My body was reaching medium well, the skin felt charred and my insides felt grey. All the while my husband had energy left for the both of us. So we start up again and my husband looks back at me and continues to talk to me. I couldn't even think of responding back bc I was using all of my concentration on telling my feet to keep walking up. One time as we were about to pass by some people coming down, he said "Let's scare them and act like we are so tired." Act?!?! Act?!? I almost felt like crying for some added drama, but even if I wanted to, there wasn't enough water from my body. I've never loved drinking water so much in my life like I did that day. I kept my water tube in my mouth pretty much all the way till the end.

 I think I made him stop ten more times, one of them being for like forty minutes. But not wanting to disappoint myself, I gave myself a pep talk and told myself that if that old man can do it, so can I. So we restart the hiking with the intention to not stop. I kept my arms at my waist (that definitely helped me breathe better and felt less tired), and the fact that I knew a burger and two beers will be waiting for me that night were definitely my motivators.

Ok, ok, now I know that I probably made this all sound scary. It wasn't. It was just a small challenge and a wake up call to the fact that I'm quite out of shape. If you ask me if I'd do it again, I'd say yes in a heartbeat. I want to go back in the same conditions. My surrounding was breathtaking, my companion was my best friend and my motivator, and the pain in the end was sweet and a reminder of the day I was able to experience.

We get to the top as we held each other hands. We decided to stay and watch the sunset. Finally, we drive back home and we witnessed a forest on fire in the middle of the night. It was beautiful and frightening at the same time. An image that will forever be in my head. So I didn't get my beer. I almost didn't want to eat my burger. I just wanted to fall asleep so that I could dream about that canyon. The beautiful Grand Canyon.