Who do you think you are?

I haven't been on this for a while. I haven't written my Sunday list in two weeks in a row and I must say that I'm very dissapointed in myself. I just haven't been feeling the love lately. I want to blame it on the weather, I want to blame it on the situations I'm put on. But they are just excuses. I'm a big believer in people having total control of their days, of their emotions, of their happiness. No one can make you sad. No one can make you feel worthless. No one can get you down. There are only people that can make you smile. There are only people that will make you feel like a million bucks. There are only people that can make you rise.

I am human. I make mistakes, and sometimes I do forget about my excellent advice. Love will set me free. I will be free. I will be happy. I will find myself in the middle of it all and I will climb to the top.

Tomorrow, I will wake up with a smile on my face. I will grab the day and run with it. I will. I can. I am.

Love letters...

If you haven't written a love letter then maybe you should start, because it is the most wonderful feeling being able to pour out your soul, and sometimes that is impossible. Sometimes there are no words what my body, mind and heart are experiencing at that moment. It is as if my body mind and heart collided and created this unknown universe with millions of stars just glittering ever so brightly. It is if I am listening to most beautiful violin and I'm running in this field full of wild flowers and the sun is shining down on me and when you see me, all you see is my smile. I love love letters even if they are small, it's the thought put into it.

May 12, 2011

Elsie,
    This actually should have been the first thing I wrote, but oh well.  I absolutely love your bright and shining optimism as you start each day.  It doesn't seem to matter what kind of a day/night you had before, you always approach each day with a smile.  You never seem to wake up cranky the way that I do.  I count on your smile more than you know.

Jeremy

via here

Writers blaaaahck.

Yeah, I had writers block or something like that, I really just could call it laziness. It happens, and I really didn't have inspiration or motivation to write. That is so weird because I love writing. Sometimes I end up writing so much silly unnecessary stuff but I still do it. It's my stress release. :) I finally got up and sat down and after watching this episode of Glee (yes, I'm a gleek) I got inspired and I've been given a sign from Him. See, I haven't been feeling myself lately. But when do I real do? I'm a mess sometimes. A hot mess, my mood swings like the monkeys in the jungle and people run from me as soon as they see me. I can't blame them.

Well, once again I've been shown how important it is to not let anything get to you because life is to short to be sad, to waste time moping around and waiting for something to happen. I can't let that happen anymore. You can't let that happen anymore. Everyone must take the world by their hands and mold it to their liking. Don't take your world and stick your fingers in the holes and throw it like a bowling ball to set out to destroy.

The world is bright. The world is your paradise. The world is your canvas and you must be the painter and paint whatever it is you want to see in your life. If you want flowers, if you want birds, if you want blue skies- paint it. Paint love, paint smiles, paint joy. If you want to see the world as your garden, you must water it with love and tend it with smiles and kisses. Life is too short to have enemies, to have regrets, to have missed moments of expressing your love to someone. So today, kiss your loved one, tell them you love them. Tell a friend how much you miss them. Tell your parents how grateful you are to have them in  your life. There is no time to be unhappy only time for sappyness. ♥

Never realized how amazingly beautiful this song is...

"If you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Want to change the world, there's nothing to it"

Love will set you free...

I have no idea...

..why I have an attraction to this song. It makes me so happy. It makes me want to dance. It makes me feel like a diva and I just want to go down the street and walk like I'm on the catwalk. Why?! Why must I feel this way when I hear this song! Dang it! It makes me feel alive! :) It makes me feel as cool as Barbra Streisand!

 This day was wonderful, it was full of sister love.

I love my sister. Although she has quite a personality, she changes for no one. I think that is good, yet bad. I think you must always do and say what you want. Speak your mind, it will set you free. That's my motto. But I also think that you must have respect, because with respect you will go far. You must have respect for your friends, family, and well, your surroundings. It's one way to survive. My sister and I were at church this Sunday and well, she was pretty much speaking her damn mouth like if she wanted everyone to hear her. She'd so very loudly say "what?!" when the priest would say something that did not sit well with her. And although I wanted to laugh, I think it's rude.

We both don't like going to church but we very much believe in God. So sometimes some things seem as a joke to us. But the only reason why I attend mass is because it makes my mom happy. And I'd do anything for that woman. I especially went last Sunday because it was madre's day. Anywho, although I tend to sometimes nod off during mass, I like to pray and have my me and God time since that's the only time I can really sit down, no excuses. I know that I must be respectful of other people's religious preferences so I will sit and not judge.

So sister of mine if you are reading this...having a little bit of r.e.s.p.e.c.t. Just a little bit...just a little bit...

I love....?

I shall start by saying that I love everything and everyone as much and as hard as I can. I want to feel nothing but love in my heart and not have once ounce of hate in my body. I don't want to think bad thoughts about someone, I don't want to wish harm on anyone, and I don't want to feel closed out by the world because of hate. I want to be free like the sun and touch everything it sees and doesn't. I want to be happy like the sun, always shining and making the world a better and beautiful place.

This weekend was totally the opposite of that and it's my fault. Any kind of unhappiness I have, I will always blame myself because that is the only person you can blame. You can't blame your sadness and stress on anyone but you. You are in control of your emotions and you can create so many in a matter of seconds, its just knowing which ones.

This weekend was probably not the best I've had so far but it could have been worse. It can always be worse. One of my many imperfections is that I build walls for myself. I build them so high that it blocks me from reality and I have these thoughts in my head that just messes me up and it weakens me. It completely weakens. So I fought with people that I shouldn't have. I fought with people that don't deserve to be fought with. I want to say that I'm sorry.


Saturday came and well, its safe to say that my vegetarian diet crashed. I ate chicken at this mole fest we went to, which I will say was really good. And then at night I ate a steak taco. I must say though that as much as I was loving the smell and the idea that it's deliciousness was about to enter my tummy, I did not enjoy one bit of it. Every bite I took made me want to cry but I was so hungry and someone had paid for it, so I didn't want to be rude and throw it away. To make matters worse by teeth hurt every time I took a bite. I should have taken that as a sign. hahaha....Sunday morning came, and let me just say that if my tummy could talk, it'd be saying nothing but swear words in every language of the world. Oh you momentary weak me.

Today is mother's day and I'm so happy that I got to take out my mother for her day, which should be every day by the way. My sister and I were super excited because she knew that she would love it. Took her out at this really cute restaurant and my sisters surprised her with flowers. :) Cute. I love my mother and I have nothing but respect for that woman. She has been able to be strong through so many things and I love that she has nothing but love for her family and friends. Even strangers, she is nothing but nice to her. I love that she can be the one person I can run to when I have something wrong happening in my life. She knows which right words to say. I love you madre.

Earlier today, I had a mother moment with my baby duchess (my puppy). And I know that it's not the same as having a human baby, but I love this dog so much that she has become my world and will always be my world. Well, today as I was walking her, we see this pit bull on a "leash" and immediately ran to her like she was about to devour my poor baby. I knew that leash was not gonna be able to hold that monster so I braced for the worst. I was correct, that thing ripped in matter of seconds and I let out a scream. "NO!" She ran straight to my puppy and just jumped on her and started attacking her face. The stupid leash wrapped around my legs and as that monster was tugging, I felt like I was going to be left without legs. I swear I felt like it lasted five minutes but I'm sure it was less than a minute till the incredibly ignorant owners grabbed their dog to pull her away. While all of this was happening I felt like kicking that dog, I was yelling "leave her alone you stupid dog" at the top of my lungs. The owner's kid pulls on the dog and repeatedly said "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I just didn't know what to say and as soon as that dog was back to its owner I walked away miraculously still in one piece and with energy to walk. It wasn't that long till I stopped on the next block and checked duchess for any open wounds and that poor dog was shaking. I could have killed that dog with my bear hands. That face on my poor puppy, I will never forget. I broke down, tears started going down my cheeks and I wanted to run home. But I knew that if I did that I probably would have fainted. Well, thankfully my puppy got back to her old self and was a happy little puppy when we went to visit some dear friends of mine. I hope I never go through that again.

So this Sunday list I will dedicate to my mother and my puppy, treasures in my life.

♥♥♥♥♥♥

1. My mother tries to make a joke so many times and they are so bad half of the times that I still end up laughing at how horrible they are. 

2. Duchess is the best alarm clock in the world. Her kisses are for free. :) 

3. My mother loves to bless me every time she gets. The care she has for me is unlimited and I'm grateful.

4. Whenever Duchess puts her ears back and looks at me with those huge eyes...I think of E.T. Lol...

5. My mom gives the best advice about friendship and love that it almost makes me feel invincible.

6. Duchess is an attention hogger....just like me. :) 

7. My mother tells me I'm beautiful a lot. ♥

8. I love how happy Duchess gets when I let her jump in bed with me. 

9. My mom never lets what any body say get her down. 

10. My mom is a Super Mom. That's a fact.

When this world ends know that you will be in my heart and thoughts...

Love yourself just because!

Love the way you are! If you have moles! If you wear glasses! If you have those little extra pounds that won't go away! If you have chipmunk cheeks! If you don't know half the words in a dictionary! If you have random bursts of happy dancing! 

I just described half of myself. I love myself just how I am. I love love love love myself!

I LOVE YOU LIFE LIST!!!!!

WOW! That's all I got to say! What a weekend and I loved every minute of it! Definitely needed some good times after working hard. :) I love my life, I love my family, friends and my best friend, lover, part-time taxi driver Iovan. ♥ Let's begin!

1. Lesa and Adam's wedding was so much fun!!! Although, we completely missed the whole ceremony, for reasons I shall not say cuz they just make me mad, lol, but we got in just in time for the good part!

2. Another fun day on Friday with Marialuisa and her bf Mike. LOVE THEM! CONSUME! (lol, inside joke.)

3. Got my nails done on Friday, and even though it was just a simple little thing, it made me feel like a princess. I deserved a little tlc, well, at least these hardworking hands did. :)

4. The weather on Saturday was SPECTACULAR! Gave my baby Duchess a good walk and we enjoyed nature and she made a new friend!

5. So I forgot to say this, at the wedding, Lesa told the DJ to put Dog Days Are Over by Florence and The Machine....I've never felt more alive while dancing and singing to that song.  AMAZING TIMES!

6. Still can't get enough of Dear Blank, Please Blank website. :)

Click me!

7. Found a new favorite band....

8. A friend of mine took this picture and it made me smile!

9. "Words with friends", scrabble game on my new phone. Sorry battery.....:)

10. This Wednesday, my love for french toast was reaffirmed. ♥♥♥ (P.S. NEW FAVORITE THING, CHOCOLATE COVERED STRAWBERRIES!)

Had an absolute awesome week and I'd do it all over again in a ♥beat! :)