Turn the dial up....

On this day, I found out about an engagement, and I was overcome with emotion. When 2 people are going to join their lives for 1 big adventure, it fills me with happiness. It is amazing that there are bajillions of people in this world and you find a person you love so much to that you take a big risk to include this person on your journey to happiness. It is like you are standing on top of the highest diving platform and there is nothing but a small 4x4 square pool in the bottom waiting for you. And everyone thinks that you are not going to make it, and everyone warns you that you are committing suicide but you trust...Trust...that you are going to make it in and so you dive. You dive into this little pool. and you find that as you are flying down the pool gets bigger and bigger and you know that you are not going to miss and that you decided right.

That is a big risk but its one that you must take because life without risks means that you will never get your heartbroken so you will never know how it is to feel to love and miss and need someone or something.

Life without risks means you will never fall down so you will never know how good it feels to get back up.

Life without risks means you will never cry, so you will never know how good it feels to wipe those tears and smile.

Life is one big risk and you need to jump.  

Early in the morning...

I saw an angel in the train. Here's the story:

On my way to work, I stepped in the train and immediately saw that people were tripping in the middle section. I turned to see someone laying on the seats like it was their bed and I thought to myself "hobo". So I sat two seats away from the hobo and that's when I got a closer look. The "hobo" was a kid. He looked like he was 13 years old.

13 years old....sleeping in the train.

This lady that was sitting right behind him turned to a guy and asked "Is he breathing?" She had this look on her face, which I did not recognize until later on. She looked scared and honestly worried.  I never see that in people's faces when they see a hobo. But a 13 year old homeless kid is a different story. I got scared too because I couldn't really see any movement and I couldn't tell if he was or wasn't breathing. So we got to the next stop she ran out of the doors as soon as they opened and she ran all the way to the front to get to the conductor. (We were the last car of the train) The conductor came all the way to the train car and checked on the boy. I think we all held our breath because I think we were all scared that he might not be breathing. He shook the boy and he woke up. The kid sat up straight and the conductor went back to the first car. Towards my stop I saw the same lady in the beginning come up to the kid, who had gone back to sleep, and shook him hard. I thought she was going to scream at him but what she did next left me with my eyes wide open.

She took out something from her pocket and I saw that it was a business card. She pulled him about five inches from her face and said "If you need anything, if you are in desperate need of food, if you need a place to stay, call me......" It was my stop and the stupid train robot voice came back on so I couldn't understand what else she was saying but along with the card she gave him money. She left the train and I was in a state of shock. I wanted to run up to her and say "That was amazing. You are wonderful. God bless you. We need more people like you in this world." I would have said a million things, but I was left stuck in a daze. God bless that woman and her beautiful soul.

Today, I saw an angel and my morning couldn't have started out more perfect.

Definition

Life- Be happy every possible second.. Love in every possible second. Forgive and move on every day. Make someone happy every day. Never hurt anyone. Be with the ones you love as much as possible. Laugh at every silly thing you do. Dance your way out of sadness. Grow old with love.

You are beautiful, amazing, and one-of-a-kind.

P.S. I bought a Yoga mat today. wooo woooo

Sorry, my dog ate my Sunday List.....

So many things that I loved this week, but I forgot one very important thing to love this week....and that was me. I forgot to love me. I forgot to that I'm the most important person to love first and that hurt me. I cannot forget to do that anymore. I am beautiful, I am smart, I am loving, I am strong, I am me. I won't forget to make sure that I love myself first before I love anyone and anything else. You know how people say that when two people are in trouble, in order to save the other person, you need to save yourself first. I'm saving myself first, and then I'll be back to saving you....

1. I love mail. I just got my Florence and The Machine ticket. June 18th, I can't wait for you to be here. :) 

2. I love making new friends. Iris and Gabi are fun bunch! 

3. I love the mini photo shoot my sister agreed to do. I needed to laugh.

4. Shoes from H&M for only $14.95. Haha. I love them.

5. I'm still a vegetarian and I love it. 

6. Found a new artist that I love to hear to when I wake up. She makes me want to paint, run, dance, write poetry. Her music is amazing.

7. I've discovered that I truly love watching basketball games. Never a dull moment there...

::ahem:: baseball ::ahem::

8. I love hearing really good news, a friend of mine is pregnant with TWINS! :) 

9. Watched Armageddon again last night....cried myself into a big puddle. 

10. Julia's text. Sent it at the right time on the right day.

I love this world, curve balls and all, but world, you are gonna have to wait your turn because loving me is my first concern.

C'est La Vie

Hmm, today....today could have been better.

It was just a series of unfortunate events. Some worse than others and I'm not proud to say but I gave in to them. I let it get it to me. I let it change my mood. Not horribly but I definitely felt a little bit of struggle to keep my smile on my face.

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But life is like that. Life has its sweet moments and its bad moments. But without its bad moments we can't appreciate the good ones. Without the bad moments, we don't work hard for the good ones. Without the bad moments, we don't grow to be better.

I'm just grateful that I did not take all of my misfortune onto someone else. That would just be irresponsible and I'm not here to make someone's day just as bad as mine. I hope that everyone....EVERYONE...had a good day and if you didn't just remember..the sun will come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow there'll be sun.

Now, if you will excuse me, I'm gonna go shake it all off by dancing. Gonna go sweat it out!

Couldn't have found a better picture.

Can I take "Sick day" for $400 Mr. Trebek?

Ugh, so I'm sick. I went all exorcist this morning in my bathroom while my dog whined at my side because she probably thought I was dying, which I thought I was too.

I don't even know what I have anymore. Thought it was food poisoning but I'm not barfing anymore, and now everything inside my body feels like it's in a fridge. (I'm shaking as I type this.) I think it's the stomach flu. Whatever it is, I feel like my life is being sucked right now by a Death Eater. Yes, I just went all Harry Potter on you guys.

The best part out of all of this could possibly be that my puppy never left my side, I was in bed for 7 hours and she never whined or came to my bed to bother me. She even made me chuckle when I'd turn to over to see her sleeping positions.

Yeah, she's sleeping.

The second part is that my boyfriend, was such a gentleman. He picked me up from my death bed at home, went to Jewel to pick up some soup and sprite. Left me in his bed, while he brought over a dinner table tray. Served me some sprite, soup and crackers.

Now that's what I call love.

I swear, that man is my angel. Thank you God. He is wonderful. :)

When you say no, I say yes!

It's been a week and I feel like i'm on top of the world. I know a week isn't anything, but I can't wait till I celebrate my 10th year as a vegetarian. I will shed tears of happiness but I'm taking this day by day, step by step, greens by greens.

You have no idea how many people laughed....LAUGHED....at my face when I told them I was changing my diet. Some laughed because they think I can't do it. Some laughed because they think being "vegetarian" is uncool. Well, we will see who will have the last laugh, and I will bet you that I will, because my choices will let me have a longer lifespan.

I wish people could OPEN up their eyes to see the toxic they are putting in their mouths. They don't see that they are going to seriously injure their bodies with hormone and disease-filled "meat" from McDonalds, Burger King, Taco Bell, or any other fast-food joint.

Ok, I know a lot of people are unable to just stop eating meat, so if you decide that you want to start eating healthy, make your own food at home and make it much more healthier. Use lean meat, use olive oil instead of corn oil, and drink water instead of soda. Stop using frozen, boxed, or canned food. (Thanks Lesa!) Get organic food from Whole Foods or any other organic grocery store.

Look at it this way, do you want to spend a little bit more to better your health? Or do you want to spend triple for doctor bills when you are older?

The Fat Man will bring me down no more!