Ooops.

Gah, so I made a mistake today and I truly regret it. I got upset because of some silly little thing and now that I actually took a step back I realized it was VERY VERY silly. I was upset because it seemed like no one really wanted to  celebrate my birthday with me. Everyone had plans to attend other birthday parties or other people just didn't care. I was mad because they always want me to attend to their fiestas but when it's the other way around they completely blow me off.

It's take take take take take and take some more but no one wants to give.

But silly me, I realized....who the fudge cares? I already have the one truly important person that wanted to spend it with me and that's all that matters. How could I be so blind. He is all I need. And I'm not mad at people. They obviously have other people up high on their priority list and I seemed to have not even made the list. Lol. Tis ok. Besides, nowadays it's all about who throws the bigger parties, who gets drunks the most, who makes a fool of themselves and take pictures of it so they can be posted on Facebook.

For me, it will be another year God has blessed me with. Another year that I got to spend with the people that matter the most. Another year with more lessons learned.

Shiznit! I am going to be 24! 

Can't wait for Saturday. I will embrace it with open arms.

P.S. My sister and I were on the train on our way home and all of a sudden I kissed her on the cheek. It was something I had to do because my heart told me so. I love her very much.

so tired...can't reach...caps lock.

AH! There, I got it! What a wonderful week I had. Couldn't have asked for a better one really because I worked so much and was able to save for a dream of mine.

This past Friday, I was in the train station when I saw a blind man playing guitar and singing. I was amazed. Not only because he had a beautiful voice, but he was BLIND and played the guitar very WELL! I mean, geez! I have two good working eyes and two hands that work and here I am standing, not knowing how to play any kind of instrument and I felt useless for a second. I need to try harder at living every day to the fullest and actually learn something. These people that have obstacles, or at least we think they have obstacles, are my idols. They inspire me. Not the celebrity that just so happened to have their picture taken at an orphanage in Africa. But people who look past their obstacles. People who overcome their obstacles. People that never give up trying in life. They are my inspiration and motivation. They are my heroes.

So here goes my Sunday list!

~♥~

1. Last night I helped out my boyfriend's brother. He started a catering company not so long ago and he did his first wedding yesterday. It was a success and I'm so happy I got to be a part of it! 

Before

Juan(bf's brother and Alex)

After

2. Today, we actually played Rock Band for the first time in years and I sang "Under Pressure" by Queen. It was my favorite moment of the day☺

3. This awesome coffee cup. ☺

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4. This text

5. Can I please, please, please have this dog?

6. This adorable video!

7. So the wedding I was serving at had the most beautiful bride, and her style was very Old Hollywood glamour. I love it when weddings aren't traditional and they have that little twist to it. 

8. You should never have to be afraid of going higher.☺

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9. Sold my first EXPENSIVE champagne bottle on Thursday, and I loved that I "opened it like a bottle of yahoo". Direct quote of my general manager. LOL! 

10. And last for the best. My boyfriend brought some of his work this week and showed me all of what he does. Granted at first it was like trying to make sense of the alien language my boyfriend was speaking, but I understood a little bit in the end and was able to see how important his work is and what a FANTASTIC job he is doing. He made me so proud that I had to tell him there and then. He's another one of my idols. Makes me happy ♥

Spread love, not lust...♥♥♥

Wacky Wednesday...

People like to screw other people over just because they can. But when it's time to actually do something nice for them, they huff and they puff and they want to rip their heads off. Why is it so much harder to be nicer than being meaner? Next time, when someone asks for a favor, do it with no negativity or feeling like you are being forced. Do it with love and something great will happen. If not now, then later.

P.S. People need to stop wasting their times on "rumors". Please, it makes me sick to think that people actually act like a bunch of snakes slithering lies and negativity. Focus on your own life.

Also, let's show some respect to everyone, no matter what color, age, religion anyone is. Yesterday I was actually called a "stupid bitch" by a hobo. Why must I be involved in such ludicrous events? So yesterday when I was working, I was at front desk when I see this older man coming in dressed up...well, like a hobo. And if his clothes didn't give it away, his smell did. He comes barging in and is walking towards the bathroom when I stopped him and said it was for customers only. I can't let anyone in the bathroom besides customers, especially not hobos. (They've gone in to steal toilet paper, inject themselves with drugs, or shit on the floor. This has all happened at work) He screams out "I'm diabetic! You want me to piss all over myself?! Rude bitch" I stopped as soon as he said he was diabetic and because I really hate confrontations but I was really upset at how he came in with no respect at all. He could've told me nicely and I would have let him. To tell you the truth, I dislike telling people they can't use the bathroom just because they are not customers. I know that there has been a couple of times where I've had to go to the bathroom so bad and I couldn't find any public bathroom close to me. It's the worst feeling. Anyways, the guy comes out and I don't acknowledge him but I see him stop in the front of the revolving doors and I try my hardest not to look up into his eyes but I do because he pretty much stood there for five seconds. I look up and he says "There is something wrong with you." and shakes his head.

Ouch.

First of all, there was nothing wrong with me because I was doing what I was being told to do or else I would have also be out of a job and be roaming the streets with this hobo. Second of all, how dare you come in, asking to use...no scratch that, not asking at all to use the bathroom. I said, and I was shaking when I said this because I hate confrontations, I said "Excuse me, but don't come in here being disrespectful to me-" and he screamed out "I don't have to respect you" he was showing me some kind of ID "I took a bullet for this country. I don't have to respect you, you stupid bitch" WHAT?! WHAT?!!!!! Just because he fought in a war, that means that I automatically don't mean much as a human being? What if I had saved a whole family from a burning house and even saved their dog? I could be a fucking hero too! Ugh. I wanted this man to just go away. So I just said "don't come back here again, sir" and as he was walking away I hear "Fuck you."

I was furious. I was upset. I was shaking. I don't hate the man. He obviously has made some decisions that have led him to this life and maybe it wasn't even him. Maybe he just had bad luck and his life might have just crumbled. But I was really upset at how mean he was. Maybe I was a bitch for not letting him go in the bathroom but I was only doing my job you know. I hope that man can find a bit of comfort wherever he is tonight, and I hope I learned from this lesson.....I'm still trying to figure out what it is. Maybe, be nicer to hobos? But I am, because every time I pass them, I send a little prayer to God or even give them a dollar or two. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

I'm going to be much more nicer to hobos.

Spread love and respect, not hobo rants.

Trust...

...Without it, you will live life with fear.
   With fear, you will not grow.
   Without growth, you will never reach the stars.
  
   So trust, and trust hard.
   Trust that life will be great to you if you put love out there.
   Trust that life will be great to you if you work at it.
   Life will be great to you if you trust. Trust in yourself and trust in the people you love.

   To some people, trusting is hard. I know, because I'm still having a hard time trusting me, myself, and you. But
   time will guide me in the right path to the promise land of trust. I can feel it.

ILYSL ♥

Meeh meh meh meeeh meeeh meeeeeh meeh meh.

Meh. :)

So without further ado, Sunday list. ♥

1. Never have I really been so ecstatic over the Harry Potter series. I loved the movies, didn't read the books, but from what I hear, the movies were really close to the books, so meh. But this franchise was born ten years ago. Ten freaking years! So when the series finally came to an end, I cried. I cried because Severus Snape wasn't really as evil as everyone thought, Freddie died, and Harry Potter died (but came back from the dead to beat some ASS!) Anywho, it was sad to know that this little, and when I mean little, I mean tiny, part of my life is over. Goodbye Harry Pottah, you made round glasses look cool.

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2. I don't have to be a huge fan of Harry Potter to go gaga over these adorable cupcakes. I WANT ONE!

3. I love my new kitty cat. She exudes drama...

4. I love sushi.

5. Today was the world cup final for women's soccer and I thoroughly enjoyed watching it. Got my heart racing a bit and even though the US team did not win, they were still champions in my book. (P.S. I love the fact that I did not see one single woman fake an injury as most guys do when they play. And they call us liars...pft)

6. Does this come in Duchess size? 

7. When the Duchess Catherine came for the Canada/USA tour, a little girl who had cancer had made a wish to meet a real life princess.  So through the Children's Wish Foundation they were able to make this little girl's dream come true. Here is what she wrote to her

"Dear Princess Kate. My name is Diamond Ann. I am six. I was named after Princess Diana. My Mommy Memory is in heaven with her.

I have cancer. I spend a lot of time at the hospital. I watched you get married from my bed there. You looked pretty.

I like playing Princess dress up. My favourite princess is Aurora. Who is yours. I would really like to meet you. Do you want to meet me too? "

 She had lost her mother to cancer four years ago, so how sad is it to go through all of that at such a young age? I hate it when little kids go through stuff like that. They are only little angels on earth. I'm so happy that Duchess Catherine was able to make an effort to see her. Here's the link to read on it a bit more! 

☺We are all princesses ♥

8. Bahahaha! ♥

9. Duchess and I found "our place"

10. I love lazy days but I only love them so much because when my love and I fall asleep, I tangle my legs with his and wrap my arms around him just so that I can feel that much closer to his heart....just so that I feel that much closer to his soul....just so that I can feel like we are one, even if just for a few seconds. ♥

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Two Extra dinky ones! 

11. Where can I get these magical shoes? 

12. And last but not least, when my bf and I went to go see Harry Potter, before the movie even started, I excused myself to the bathroom (I didn't want to miss any part of the movie). So as I was walking down the hallway, I hear some kids talking about the Harry Potter movie. I IMMEDIATELY started humming loudly so that I wouldn't catch any spoilers. Hahaha, I can't believe I did that. Shhh! I didn't tell my bf so that he wouldn't think I was a loser.

hehehehe....sweat dreams ♥

Spread love...not spoilers. ☺

An obvious fact...

Fact: Bears beats Battlestar Galatica....:) just kidding. 

FACT: I ♥ Duchess.

►She is my favorite non-human living thing (even though she acts better than most humans).
►She will always be my number one (well, she shares a spot with Iovan).
►She makes me happy (except when she decides it's time to decorate my room with the garbage from my garbage can).
►She loves me and no one else (except Iovan, but that's only because he gives her treats).
►She loves me and Iovan (but that biatch will leave you as fast as you can say "doggie treat")
►She makes me proud every time we go for walks because she is so obedient. (even though she embarrasses the crap out of me when she decides to take a dookie in front of someone's lawn, while that someone is outside...starting at me.)
►She was a big part of why I decided to stop eating meat for a while. (every animal reminded me of her, and I just couldn't eat "her")
►She has the most beautiful eyes ever.(And the most beautiful heart, she lets Lucky(our new cat) chew her tail)

Gah. I love her. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I do what I want. ☺

Sometimes, I forget to bring my filter with me everywhere I go. I try to be the classy little lady I wish I could be but fuck that. ◄ YOU SEE THAT! Hahaha. Swear words are a nasty little habit of mine but it's nice to let go of a shit, fuck, mother...you get the point. And sometimes it is needed! Especially when you forgot to bring your uniform to work, or you lock yourself out of a car, or you slam your finger with the door as you lock yourself out of the car. That's a big motherfuckin ouch. OR when you have a stammering problem like King George the VI....

BUT there are times when you need to watch what you say, especially when you are in the train and you are speaking to your friend or lover on the phone LOUDLY SAYING "How the f*** you try to play me like that b****, you think i'm a stupid h*, you think this mother****** d*** is gonna play me like that!" Sheesh, you kiss your mother like with that mouth? I especially dislike swearing or hearing anyone swear in front of old people. I mean, I know they had their few share of swear words back in the day. "Dognabbit!" "Dang skippy!" or my favorite "You twit!", hahahaha, but its that respect that was instilled in me since I was a little twit and I want to keep it that way. I even think it's horrible to swear in front of kids. Yes, I know that with the tv, radio, and internet (thank you, urban dictionary) they will eventually find out about all these horrific new swear words, which I'm not even gonna post online because they are just so bad. Lol. (Who comes up with these? Does someone really just sit in the couch and think of all the ways they can combine words to make them mean something insulting? Oh people....) Little kids brains are molding every second of their young life, let's teach them something useful and not something that only lasts two seconds.

Anyways, I'm just gonna say to all close to me, I'm sorry for not censoring myself, there are just some times when I need to vent for a second or two in my day....and I think that's healthy. Do it.....IF YOU REALLY NEED TO!


Spread love, not nasty habits...